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Monday, December 29, 2008
 Sometimes I wonder why I'm such a jealous person. Because it fucking sucks. It really fucking does. It sucks seeing the guy I think I might love hang all over girls who could barely be considered sloppy seconds. And maybe it should make me feel better knowing that I'm better-looking than all of them and a lot less sleazy. But I can't let him go. Not yet. Not until someone comes along who makes me forget his last fucking name. I wish I had never apologized to him. Now I know that whenever I see him next, I'll just fall in love all over again. I'm reading Posing In A Ballroom. It kinda reminds me that everyone has a secret, you know? How you can look at someone at a restaurant or at the market who looks completely, 100% normal, but they could have one secret. One that would make you change your whole outlook on them. They could be prostitutes. They could be a man disguised as a woman. They could have terminal cancer and drop dead at any day. Who fucking knows. I've just learned not to be quick to judge. I've also realized how much I depend on my friends for my sanity. Especially my Filipino goodfuck. I depend on her more than anyone else tbh. But my other friends also. It's kinda disheartening that I can't manage to be happy on my own, but it's comforting to know I have enough trust in my friends to put such a burden on them, lmao. Myles told me I was a cutie. Hahahah. Every rule about internet safety just flew out the goddamn window. I just got the weird compulsion to listen to TAI... You have been followed back to the same place I sat with you drink for drink. Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist... |
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